Usaby
MSN
10:46
http://www.livejournal.com/users/mseverchanging/  I hope you feel good.

sat
MSN
10:46
Kirby, get it through your head
10:46
cosplay is not a hobby for me, it is a business
10:46
when the bills aren't paid I lose my house
10:47
it isn't a matter of "mommy might get mad" it is "I lose everything"
10:47
I depended on that

Usaby
MSN
10:47
I underSTAND THAT.

sat
MSN
10:47
then act like it and tell your mother no
10:47
I am fucking sick of being told how I am just screwing you over by her
10:47
that is why I am shipping your stuff off to you and being done
10:47
I am not like them but I don't have the mental capacity for this right now

Usaby
MSN
10:48
Don't you think I don't get sick of it either? And she fucking SLAPED me when I told her that you had said that she was mentally abusing me.

sat
MSN
10:48
I am on the verge of Harold being willing to try for a loan for my shop and frankly I don't want this to hinder that
10:48
uhm Kirby..... call the fucking police
10:48
if you don't want to be abused call the goddamn police
10:48
if you can't do that then I have no more advice for you
10:48
you are the cause of your own demise at this point
10:48
not her
10:48
because your refusal to say or do anything is what makes her keep doing it

Usaby
MSN
10:49
And say what exacatly? "Oh my mom is controling my money, won't let me spend it... At all... Takes three dollars out of a whole 6 dollars an hour that I make every time I go to work... Oh yeah! And every once in a while she'll say things to me that hurt my feelings!"

sat
MSN
10:50
uhm no
10:50
go in and say "my mother assaulted me, I want her in jail"
10:50
her hitting you is A-S-S-A-U-L-T

Usaby
MSN
10:50
I don't want her in jail.
10:50
She might hit me from time to time

sat
MSN
10:50
then you apparently like the abuse

Usaby
MSN
10:50
But I don't want her in jail.

sat
MSN
10:51
Kirby I can't be around that then
10:51
I am sorry to be cruel to you like this but I refuse to watch somebody be the pathetic person that I once was
10:51
I already talked to Rachel about this a while ago
10:51
I don't have the stomach for it

Usaby
MSN
10:51
So it's my fault?

sat
MSN
10:52
it is both of your fault
10:52
her fault for being a fucking psycho and your fault for allowing her to get away with it

Usaby
MSN
10:52
And your going to cut me off, and decide that after you told me "no matter what" that we'd be friends. Your not going to be my friend anymore?
10:52
You lied to me.

sat
MSN
10:52
I will be here when you decide to stand up but until then i am not going to be toyed with
10:52
I didn't lie at all
10:53
I will be here when you wisen up
10:53
the fact remains Kirby
10:53
you called me one night when you mother hit you
10:53
I got into a horrible fight with Harold about giving you a place to stay for the night until I could figure something out, even got him to say he would go with me to get you all for you to NOT do anything at all
10:53
which leaves me wondering if you LIKE having your mother to bitch about
10:53
I am not saying you do
10:53
who does
10:53
but what I am saying is that if you wont' help yourself I can't help you
10:54
and I don't want to sit back and watch the shit I went through happen to somebody else and watch my heart break because that person won't do something
10:54
I refuse to revert to that mental state
10:54
someday when you open your eyes to it you will understand what I am going through right now
10:54
but right now you are going to feel I am ditching on you
10:54
if that is how you wish to look at it, I can't stop you
10:55
however I can say this, someday you are going to go "holy shit, she was right" and I hope that then you will still have a way to contact me
10:55
but I do NOT want to watch this happen all over again
10:55
I lived it with my own life and body and I don't want to have to watch somebody else live through it
10:55
I guess I am a coward in that respect but the fact remains I don't like seeing people in pain
10:55
especially when they REFUSE to do anything bout it
10:55
I am sorry kirby but I bid you farewell until we meet again
10:56
I will ship your things out to you this weekend
10:56
you are still welcome at pocky box per the policy that if you follow the rules you are welcome there just like everybody else
10:56
but I do NOT want this heartache
10:56
and I now have to go tell my husband that the money we spent is now gone
10:56
good night and good luck